Jul 15, 2017

Weigh In Week 43



I went to a meeting this past Monday at the WW Centre where I weigh in. Monday was the only free night I had this week. It was also the leader's first night, a gentleman named Jeff who had lost 185 lbs with WW.  I really liked his style and he was very pumped up.   I will check out a few different meetings next week and see which one settles on me as "home".  I will continue to weigh in on Friday or Saturday mornings though. This week had highs and lows.

I spent a lot of time with my sister who is here from Dubai for a few months to have her second child in August.  She's going through some issues and my heart is breaking for her. It was a very emotional week.   There was, and continues to be,  a lot of drama at work that made the days feel long and onerous.   My son injured himself at work about six weeks ago which caused a hernia that has not healed on it's own and now we are waiting to see a surgeon.  

In good news, we have amazing summer weather and I am getting a lot of walking in, especially on my lunches and breaks at work which is helping me with the insanity going on right now.  I had a great week following my 'points' and eating well including a meal at a restaurant and one catered meal at work.  I am feeling more like I am back in the groove and I can do this.  The scale was still bouncing about between 184-187 all week at home but I'm using my WW weigh in as my official one going forward. Although the loss was minimal, I feel like I had a great week! 

Jul 6, 2017

Weigh In Week 42


Today was my first weigh in at the meeting centre so totally different scale (definitely more accurate!) and fully dressed (in my lightest possible clothes!). It is a mind-f*ck to see a higher number than I am used to seeing but it's all relative. The difference from start to finish would be the same if I started on this scale.  After this week it won't matter. I am planning to attend meetings on a week night but weigh in on Friday mornings when the centre opens at 7:30 a.m.  I prefer a morning weigh in and I often have meetings on Thursday nights where we have dinner catered.  This will help me be more mindful of portions and of the sodium content if I know I am weighing in the next day. Wish me luck! 

I was really faltering for a few weeks. There was a 50% off promo for 6 months so it made sense to sign up now.  The fee per month is about what I would spend on eating out twice a month (which I rarely do anymore) and this will get me through my hardest parts of the year - Summer/Fall (Thanksgiving and my birthday) and Christmas.  My pass expires January 4, 2018 at which time I hope to have decided on a goal weight.  I also suspended my YMCA membership until November because I would much rather be hiking and walking outside for the short time we have such nice weather.  Cancelling the Y offsets the cost of my WW membership for 6 months so no change to my budget! 

My sister is renting a condo with a pool and gym and so I can also use that if I find I am missing the treadmill or stairmill - as if! 

Onward and downward :)

Jul 5, 2017

Canada 150 Weekend




















Last weekend was Canada's 150th Birthday (the birthday of Confederation - obviously the land mass is much older!). July 1st is also my eldest son's and my mother-in-law's birthday and since it's a Statutory Holiday, it's always a big celebration day for us. It was a bit quieter this year than normal but we did have our family barbeque at my son's house and it was a lot of fun, laughter and food!  Iain is my oldest son on the right in the photo below.

It was extra special because my sister is here from Dubai and is staying with us for a week so she was with us. She is 36 weeks pregnant so the heat outside was a bit overwhelming but she was set up nicely on  chaise lounge under an umbrella and my sons were only too happy to keep refilling her glass with lemon and water and bring her whatever her heart (and stomach!) desired. They absolutely adore her. They grew up with her as sort of an older sister as she is 15 years younger than me and they are excited to have another baby cousin. She already has a 2 year old son.

Saturday morning I did a 5k race with another WW friend. When we arrived at the park to pick up our chips there was a long line at the registration desk. They had over 250 people register last minute.  This was at a park that was also hosting a big Canada Day celebration all day and was right on the waterfront and with the special-ness of the day and the medals, I think it was reasonable to expect a huge turnout.  As walkers, we crossed the finish line at about 58 minutes and found there were no medals left, due to the large late registrations of runners who crossed before us. This has never happened to me at any race before. It was very upsetting because the medals were commemorative for this year and because walkers deserve the same respect as runners.  We pay the same fees to enter and for those of us that registered in advance it was a slap in the face to have our medals go to runners who registered last minute. I did email the event organizer as this organizer hosts many of the races I attend all year. She said she is trying to get more medals from the manufacturer as there were just under 100 of us who did not get medals and she was very nice about expressing how they were overwhelmed and unprepared by the last minute registrations and assured me that they have every respect for all participants.  I know it's not a big thing, but it was important to me.


We skipped the fireworks this year as we were all over tired and just went home and watched Netflix and were in bed by 9:30 p.m.

We spent all day Sunday at Niagara Outlet Malls (Canada side) where my sister spent lots of money!  She had a great time buying all the things that are 1000% more expensive in Dubai. I bought a few things as there were a lot of great sales.  On Monday we made the trip across the border to Buffalo and went to Galleria Mall. Not so much shopping, although the sales were also good and the mall was deserted!  With a 37% exchange rate right now, the deal has to be amazing! I did find a really awesome pair of brown sandals that I have been looking for / wanting for a few months at a really good price at Macey's so I bought those and picked up a few camisole type tops (to wear under cardigans/blazers) from WalMart.  We had lunch at the Olive Garden. I had forgotten how heavy their food is!

I took yesterday (Tuesday) off just to take care of stuff around the apartment and run some personal errands (pedicure/manicure, groceries, laundry - urban domesticity at it's finest!) and am back to work today!

WW Canada has a 50% off deal right now and I think I am going to switch to meetings.  I struggled in June to stay on track and am struggling this first week of July. I need to do whatever it takes to not falter.

P.S. The formatting of my blog is all effed up since the background was deleted.

Jun 30, 2017

Weigh In Week 41

I did get a new scale which is exactly the same model of my previous one.  A friend gave it to me so it's not "new" but it works consistently :) So this is my first real gain since starting in September.  I know June was a hard month.  I had a lot of meals out, less exercise and found it hard to stay motivated.  Or it could just be a new scale!   Either way, doesn't matter - it will all work itself out over the next few weeks and I will not let it discourage or derail me. This is going to be a life long journey of CONSTANT VIGILENCE (Hi Norma!) and a bad week here or there is not going to define that journey. Many great things happened in June as well. I had my blood work done and everything is normal. Lipids, glucose, kidney/liver function - all well within normal ranges.  My resting heart rate has come down from the high 60's to low 50's. I can wear size 14 and size 14 petite in most cases in just about any store.  "Skinny" or "slim" styles don't fit cause of my butt and thighs but regular clothes fit and look great.  I've spent a lot of time the last week walking and hiking.  Hiking in the woods is my happy place and both calms and excites me. I sleep better and deeper after a hike.   I started Couch to 5K again but I am still not convinced I wan t to be a 'runner', it's just another form of exercise to change things up again and to improve my heart and lung stamina. I've just posted a few pics below of what made me feel good through June.

Jun 15, 2017

Last Day...I hope!

Today is my last day of craziness at work. 6 meetings tonight from 5 pm to 9 pm then meetings drop to one a month until September/October. Thank God. I am so tired.

I still cannot shake this cold/sore throat/sinus issue and I am wondering now if it's allergies as it's been over 6 weeks. I will try and get to my doctor next week. 

I had an awesome time in Pennsylvania visiting my friends and we ate out every meal...which I knew we would. I started off making great choices, by the fourth day, not so great choices.  I ate about a quarter of that giant sundae in the photo below. It was a place that hand churned the ice cream and it was whip cream made from cream from a local dairy and you know what? It tasted fantastic. I am not sure if it's because of those things or because it's been a long time since I ate something like that. But it was a treat and definitely one worth it!

The drive was glorious. Everything was SO green. It reminded me so much of where I used to live in England. I've only ever been in the Fall before.

The gym in the hotel was under renovations (which they failed to tell me when I called on Thursday to confirm they had a treadmill and a bike) - and unfortunately the friends I was visiting are not active at all and  I didn't know the neighbourhood or feel safe enough to hit the trails on my own....plus I didn't want to take time away from my visit as they had planned a lot of activities for us.

We saw a local theatre production, went to a bunch of garage sales, saw Wonder Woman and did an Escape Room.  In between, we ate! Not even joking a little bit. Despite the food overload,  it was a great break from real life.

I weighed myself on Tuesday morning (my first morning back at home) and the scale said 172.6 lbs.  I wish I had taken a picture of it! I put in a new battery and it still said 172.6 lbs. Then I moved it to another place (I have tape on the floor so it's always in the same spot) and it said 212 lbs. Now I am sure I gained weight while away. My weight on the Friday morning I left was 182.3 lbs so I know I didn't lose 10lbs and I know for sure I didn't gain 30.....so it's time for a new scale I think. This one has to be at least 10 years old, it was a $19.99 WW scale from Costco. 


My clothes fit OK but I don't think I would notice a 3-5 lb gain in my clothes since most of them are fitting pretty loose.  That's this weekend's mission - find a new scale.  Any suggestions?

I go to the Diabetic Clinic at the end of June so I can check my new scale against the one there. There was always a 2 lb difference between my home scale and the one there.  However, I am always fully dressed at the clinic and at home I weigh in naked or just in underwear so I was counting them as pretty much the same.












Jun 8, 2017

Weigh In Week 38

Leaving for PA in a few minutes! See ya next week!!! 

Jun 5, 2017

Now What?

 

It's not my official weigh in day but this is what I saw on the scale this morning.

This has been a long road. I've not seen this number on the scale since I was 23 years old (to save you the math, that's almost 27 years!).   

I've hit 190 many times over the years and maintained 190-195 lbs for several years at a time. But getting below that was always elusive and seemingly impossible.

Seriously a long time to get here. Throw in medical issues, grief, raising a young family, a disabled husband, a career with a lot of travel, and ailing/aging parents and it always felt so hard to do things I needed to do to contribute to a healthier me. Some other challenges along the way; PCOS, hypothryoidism and some other metabolic disorders which means calories in/calories out has never ever worked for me.  I know I have to limit all carbs (especially processed though) and also eat pretty much low fat for me to lose at all. It sucks. I'd love to be able to eat 1300-1400 calories of whatever and still lose.  But I don't. I know this and have tried to fit into nutritionist's boxes of eating whole grains and fruit and then be so frustrated when I gain weight. So now, I know my body best and the results speak for themselves. And there is still a long road ahead.  

Definitely having a great medical team who finally helped me get the PCOS and high insulin under control and find the right level of thyroid meds has a lot to do with it and I think as my body gets healthier, it functions better and the old problems rear their head less and less. Even fibro flare ups are reduced both in severity and frequency as I lose weight.

I have to admit though, that reaching a reasonable goal weight seems achievable now but since this is all new territory, I have no idea what that goal weight might be. My doctor (thankfully!) doesn't believe too much in the BMI scale. According to BMI a normal weight for my height at 5'0" is 97-123 lbs.  I weighed 118 lbs when I was 19 and was very, very skinny.  At 21 I weighed 130 lbs and wore size 6 in most clothes, some size 8.  So at 50 years old, with lots of extra skin tissue and curves, I am not sure what is realistic and since it is still at least 30-40 lbs away I am not going to dwell on it too much. Whatever number I decide, I know maintaining it...well that's a whole other bridge I will have to cross when I get there. I have also learned not to focus on scale oriented results. 

I can't control what my body will do on any given day in terms of water retention, hormones etc. but I can control how much activity I do and how much (and more importantly, what) I eat.  I try to see weight loss as a by product of those activities rather than the end goal.  It's a subtle difference but makes it so much easier for me when the scale doesn't show the result I think should correlate to my effort immediately.  It also allows me to take satisfaction and pride in being able to walk 5K faster this week than last week, being able to walk 10k easier than last week, being able to run up a flight of stairs and not be winded, be able to paint my own toenails, have more room in my tiny shower stall, fit into clothes at regular stores....all of these NSV's (non scale victories) are just as validating as the number on the scale that will eventually catch up if I keep doing all the right things.

This is a great podcast about "quitting" that applies to all areas of life, not just weight loss.  She also has a whole series on just weight loss that I am going to start listening to while I'm on out walking this week.



Jun 3, 2017

Muscle MLK 5k

It was a gorgeous day but this damn sinus cold made it feel like the longest 5k ever!! My gun time (for walking) was 59.28. Pretty slow for a race or any time for that matter!  The victory is that I really wanted to cancel but I went anyway.  We were given wrong directions by the race co-ordinators on kit pick up day so we ended up in the wrong end of the park and only arrived at the start line 5 minutes before gun time and I still had to go pee which was about 500 m away so I ran - yes RAN - to the washrooms and back and hit the start line about 2 seconds after the gun went off.


Jun 2, 2017

Weigh In Week 37 

May has been an up and down month.

Not just on the scale but in life in general.

I've been fighting a flu/cold since the first week and I get better for a few days then it hits full force again. The sinus headache and the cough is the worst as they keep me up at night and I am so tired I could sleep standing up at this point!

I think my overall loss for May was 3.7 lbs which is my smallest monthly loss to date.  My average weekly loss is 1.25 lbs.  It's still a downward trend but it's not great.

I am not sure what to expect next. I haven't been this weight in over 23 years (a longer post about that some other time).

May 30 was my company's AGM and part of the reason for having worked so many long hours in the last few weeks.  It was a lovely evening and I wore a very 'out of my comfort zone' dress and I did feel a bit like Cinderella with all the compliments and attention.  These are mostly people I had not seen since the last AGM a year ago and some people I work with but only see sporadically.  It was a very surreal feeling to have people come over to me and say they didn't recognize me at first.  I don't think I look that different. Smaller, yes.  And I am sure the dress had a lot to do with it as I normally wear pants / blouses to work and my hair was down - it's usually up during the week or at least pushed back.  When I get the photos from the photographer I will post some.

May 31 was Dennis' birthday and me and the boys spent the day together. We had lunch at a burger joint we used to go to as a family and that Den and I were at on it's opening day almost 30 years ago. I guess I haven't been since we lost him because the owner right away asked where he was and why we hadn't been in for so long.  I felt bad for him because he felt so terrible when we told him that he gave us free lunch in his memory.  It was a nice way to acknowledge his birthday and for me and the boys to have time to reminisce and laugh.

I am busy at work right up until mid - June then things drastically slow down until the end of August and I am so looking forward to the mental break!  Funnily enough, I've been assigned a summer student assistant at the time of the year I need the least help!  But it will give me a chance to catch up on all those things that never get done.

Next weekend (June 9-12) I am going to Wilkes-Barre PA to visit a high school friend and his wife. I try and go every year but the last time was Fall 2015 so it's been a while. I love road trips!  It's about a 7 hour drive with stops and we go through the mountains so it's an absolutely gorgeous drive. I've never made the drive in the summer, only the Fall, so it will be so nice to see the difference of the seasons in the mountains.  My friends are lovely lovely people but do not eat at home - EVER. So it will be a weekend of eating out. I am staying at a hotel this time which makes it a bit easier to at least control my breakfast and I can use the gym first  thing in the morning. I'm hoping to get at least one long walk in over the weekend as they live near some nice trails and the rest of the time will be at an amusement park, garage sales, shopping, restaurants and sitting on their deck watching the sunset.  Although it's a mini-vacation it will be anything but restful....but it will be so much fun.




May 27, 2017

Weigh In Week 36 

Just a blip on the radar of my life this week...

May 24, 2017

Quickie

Just a quick post to say life is crazy right now.  Work, personal stuff, health stuff....just very overwhelmed. I am still tracking everything and still following WW.  Walking and the Y have fallen by the wayside for now but I know once this crazy period is over (first week of June), I will get back to it.

Dennis' (my late husband) birthday is next week and I am not sure if that is affecting my general low mood but I am definitely feeling more melancholy, introverted and withdrawn than usual.

I have not been weighing myself in the mornings the last week and half.  I've been getting up early and going to work so early that by the time I remember, I am already dressed or eaten breakfast or out the door and tell myself I will do it the next day and then I forget again.

My night time weigh ins are all between 186-189 so I'm not worried at all.  My clothes are fitting even looser and people keep telling me I am "tiny". Tiny is an extreme exaggeration!  I was able to buy size Large at a regular store last week and size 14 Nine West jeans are actually loose right out of the dryer :)

I am going to set my alarm to remind me to weigh in tomorrow, my regular weigh in day.

I'm trying to keep up with all your blogs though because you all inspire me and I so appreciate the support you give me.


May 13, 2017

Unity 6.93km Run/Walk

Times not posted yet but the clock at the finish line was 1:18:01. MyFitbit says  11:07/km (walking) and I am good with that!  Before the race; after the race with a vintage cop car and the bling! 

May 6, 2017

Lynne's Legacy 5k

It was a rainy, cold and miserable day in Hamilton this morning and I've come down with a stomach bug since Thursday night so I wasn't feeling my best. I didn't want to bail on my friend Melissa, so I dragged myself out of bed and met her to get this done. We actually had a good time and our gun time was great. Still waiting for chip times.  Red faced and rain-haired smiling me in the arena after the race! The bling and Finisher's Certificate.

Edited to add: This is walking time - I don't run anymore.
   

May 2, 2017

Weigh In Week 33

Week 33 and another loss!

I lost about 10 lbs before I joined WW in September so FitBit celebrated with me with a 50 lbs lost badge.   

I had a bit of a "50lbs and no difference" moment at my kettlebell class the other night. One wall of the fitness studio is all mirrors, so seeing my reflection lined up next to tall and toned women really hit home how far I still have to go. 

These photos helped me put it in perspective. 

The first photo was May 2016 and the right side just this past weekend.  The first one was taken at my work AGM so I'm looking forward to this year's photos at the end of May.

I just signed up with WW online for another 3 months.  At the end of that three months I will probably join meetings so I can get lifetime (hopefully) and stop giving them my money :)

Not much else going on in my corner of the world. I've signed up for a bunch of races (walking) with my friend Melissa for the Summer/early Fall and I am planning a trip to Vegas for my 50th birthday in October, probably around Thanksgiving weekend.

Other than that, I keep going to the Y and walking as much as I can although Spring seems to have gone back into hibernation the last week or so. At least its not snowing!  I can handle rain :)










Apr 29, 2017

Walking Tall

I met some WW Online ladies for lunch today and felt like I looked pretty good!  NSV: I wore these awesome sandals walking around all day today and no pain in feet or back or legs! I am only 5' tall so heels always make me feel special. I haven't been able to wear them for ages - the extra weight made me off balance and my back and feet couldn't take it. 

Apr 25, 2017

Weigh In Week 32


This felt like a hard week! I have a post in my head about being below 190 but saving it for when it feels more real - if I get to 185 I'll post it!

Total for April is 4.7 lbs.


Weekly average: 1.32 lbs


   


Apr 21, 2017

Suited Up

This suit is size 16. It hasn't fit since late 2014. I tried it on the other day hoping I could wear it to a conference today.  It was too big!  I had it altered and now it fits perfectly :)  The seamstress said it was taken in a size and a half!
  


Apr 6, 2017

Weigh In Week 29



This week I tried two new things!  I took a Zumba class and a Kettlebell class. Both served to reinforce my un-gracefulness and un-coordination! They were both different than I expected but still very much fun and very challenging.

I also did Aquafit 4 times since my last weigh in, 2 of those classes on the same day as a Zumba and Kettlebell class. In the Kettlebell class we did a lot of things I have never done before; plank, side plank, side lunges and supermans.  I managed to do them all to some degree and I am going to practice at home so next week I won't feel quite so inept.  The Kettlebell class was small - just 10 women of varying sizes and degrees of fitness so it was very inclusive and welcoming. The instructor did not seem very helpful to individuals, as in modifying or correcting form, but she is cheerful and seems very patient so that's always helpful.  Zumba was  madhouse! I counted 40 women. It was very crowded, which always makes me anxious, but once I got into it, I just zoned into the instructor and my own feet and it was fine.

Definitely something was working though because I woke up the morning after the Kettlebell class hurting all over, mostly quads, hamstrings and abs.  I am still somewhat sore today but it is better!

Although Spring has arrived, we are expecting snow tomorrow and it has been rainy the last few days.  The weekend is supposed to be gorgeous though and I am looking forward to a beachfront walk at least one day.

Hope your week is going well!!!

Apr 2, 2017

First Weekend in April

Just some pics of what I've been doing this lovely first weekend in April. It has been a long Winter! 

Mar 28, 2017

Weigh In Week 28

This was a good week. I got to Aquafit for  4/4 classes and walked at least 30 minutes every day since last Friday.

Work is still crazy busy this week and next but just normal days with only one evening meeting next week. 

 And it looks like Spring has decided to show her face!


 

Mar 25, 2017

Weigh In Week 27

This has been a very busy week with work functions and all the prep and long hours that go into that.  This week had too little fruit and vegetables, too little water and too little sleep. My steps were half decent because I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off all week. 

 I also ate way too much sodium and crappy food this week and I was feeling sluggish by Friday.  I did get to Aquafit twice last week and no one ran screaming when they saw me. My new swimsuit is too big when I'm in the water so I'll have to pick up another one at Sam's Club next time I'm in Buffalo.

 I had a good night's sleep last night and got myself up and out for an 8 am Aquafit class and then came home and have already had breakfast, cleaned the kitchen and done a load of laundry. Next up, meal planning, groceries and run the dishwasher.  I am in a couple of fitbit challenges so I might head back to the Y and hit the treadmill on this rainy and dreary day.  Have a great weekend! 

Mar 16, 2017

Weigh In Week 26

This was a good week. I am feeling so much better. Still not getting my 10,000 steps/day consistently but am definitely moving more and sleeping better as well.  I think this week's loss is a bit inflated because last week was a bit higher than what I had seen earlier in the week, but at the end of the day all I care about is that it comes off and some weeks will be great and some not so great and the scale doesn't always directly nor immediately reflect the work put in. I have been double tracking this past week because the dietitian at my diabetes clinic was worried I wasn't eating enough - ha ha ha ha!!   So I have been tracking calories in MFP and also Smart Points on WW.  My average calories are 1240 over the seven days. Lowest day was 846 and highest was 1450.  The low day was a day where I ate absolutely nothing processed (bread/rice/pasta) and stuck to whole foods. The higher day was a day I had a sandwich for lunch.  I'll double track for another week but it's very tedious so I'm not going to do it forever when counting points continues to work.  My macros have been almost right at 40/30/30 (Carbs/Fat/Protein), keeping in mind that most of my high carb foods are fruit and sweet potatoes and the rest come from vegetables.  As long as this keeps working, I'm not looking to make any changes! We were hit with a final blast of Winter (I'm telling myself it's the final blast!) and there's been lots of snow shovelling which is hard work!  As I get older I find I like Winter less and less and can see myself moving to warmer climes at some point. Retirement is a ways off, unless I find a sugar daddy, so I am going to have to suck it up :(

Mar 13, 2017

March Madness

I can’t believe we are halfway through March. It feels like a whirlwind!

On the health front, I was able to see a surgeon fairly quickly and he believed my issues were gastro and not pancreas related which was a huge relief to me, I had been playing Dr. Google too much and had myself scared witless.  Anyway, we started a proton pump inhibitor medication which helped almost overnight and I am feeling so very much better.   No pain so I am sleeping better and I think the iron supplements are finally kicking in so I don’t feel like I am dragging myself every single day just to get through the day.  I am not out of the woods yet, I am having a gastroscopy in a few weeks but the surgeon is fairly sure that it will not show anything to worry about.  I’ll keep you posted.

We are expecting a snow storm tonight into tomorrow, but honestly, every March we get a storm warning with a foot of snow (which I know is not a lot to most of the north east) and it never happens, so que sera sera!  I live on what is called “Hamilton Mountain” and work downtown so the only issue is that the roads to get to downtown are steep and winding and sometimes very, very icy with just cold weather, never mind adding snow….but I have good snow tires and everyone drives very slowly and cautiously when required so it’s not really a big hazard.  I do hate the time I have to stand outside clearing off my car though. I hate the time standing outside in the  &^&*% COLD and BLOWING WIND is what I should say.

Work will be fairly quiet this week as its March break and our staff with school age children have taken the week off, including my Manager, so it’s a good time to catch up on little jobs that I can never get around to and to organize my files for 2017 – yep, I have not even done THAT yet. It has been nonstop busy since the New Year and then I was off sick for a week and a half in January.

Road Race season picks up full swing in April and I have not yet decided which races I want to do (walk). I normally do 3-5 races of 5K and one 10K. My race partner had surgery a few weeks ago so she is not sure when she’ll be up to walking that much but I have done the races alone before so I will have to look at the schedule and decide which ones to do.  Some are more welcoming to walkers and others more to runners.  The Around the Bay Road Race in my city (Hamilton) is a big event that I have done pretty much every year since moving here but I am giving it a miss this year. It is by far the most crowded event and although it’s neat to end the race by running/walking into a stadium packed with people – the roads are busy and it is easy to get shoved aside by a runner even whilst walking right at the kerb.  It’s also at the end of March and I hate the cold – have I mentioned that?  I used to blog about every race, you can see some in the link on the right (Event Photos and Results), even some from when I used to actually run (albeit at a turtle's pace!).


I am continuing with Weight Watchers on line and continuing to take one day at a time.  So far, I’m doing well with the program so if it ain’t broke…..

Mar 10, 2017

Weigh In Week 25

I did see 197 earlier in the week but that's the way the scale bounces!

 

Mar 1, 2017

February Recap

Well February really sucked in my little world.

I am still battling these ongoing health issues since mid-January.  I was in Urgent Care last week and was tested for a whole battalion of stuff. Good thing is they couldn't find anything - bad thing is they couldn't find anything.

That doesn't change the fact that I am in pain, absolutely exhausted and nauseated all the time.  The pain is specific, it's not generalized fibro pain although that's how this whole episode started.

My family doctor is awesome and is referring me to a general surgeon he went to school with so I can get in a lot faster than normal.  Keeping my fingers crossed for some answers sooner rather than later.

I purposely did not weigh in last week because I was bloated and taking pain meds and knew my head could not deal with a false gain....or a false loss because I had only been on liquids for 3 days.

I will weigh in tomorrow on my regular day.  

I am sure this is contributing to my lackluster progress in February but I am tracking everything, keeping within my points (except for those days where eating is too painful and I am on liquids) and sticking to very little processed food.

I have not been walking nearly as much as I had been because the pain is truly exhausting. By 7 p.m. I am wiped and I am trying to limit pain meds to the times I need it to catch up on sleep.  They also make me a little spacey so I can't take them if I am work or going to drive.

In really good news - all my bloodwork for diabetes and high cholesterol came back with all 'normal' ranges.  My A1C was 5.8 which is in the non-diabetic range and two weeks ago we cut out one diabetic medication completely.  We also lowered my thyroid medication significantly.  Cholesterol was in the normal range for the first time in about 10 years.  I only started iron about 3 weeks ago so it's too soon to tell if its made a significant difference, we'll test it again in a few months.

With all this good stuff....I should feel great, no?

No. Apparently not.

Welcome March!!!  Let's hope its a better one!



Feb 14, 2017

Random Ramblings

My brother has gone home. He was here three months (with one week out for when he went back home for a week). It has been a difficult three months. 

Not because he's difficult to live with - quite the contrary. He's a great house guest - cooks, cleans, does his own laundry, always pleasant, makes a good cup of tea :).....but our apartment is a very, very small space and he is a big personality.  

He also always needs the TV on or to be talking whereas Liam and I are very much introverts and enjoy solitude and quiet,  he's the biggest extrovert I've ever met.  He is also a super picky eater which meant we were eating a lot of meals to accommodate him and most times I just let him cook so then for sure he'd be OK eating it.  It also meant increased groceries. A lot of bread. So much bread.

I'm glad to have my space back.

I'm glad to have my routine back.

And I'm glad some of the stress of feeling 'responsible' for him and trying to help him while he was here is gone.  I do hope he can pull his life together, for his own sake and his kids - but I don't think there was much more Liam or I could do for him at this juncture in his life.

I rejoined WW for another three months this past weekend. I really waffled between online and meetings but finally decided that online is working for me right now so let's see where I am in three months and if I need the extra motivation and push of meetings, I will revisit  it at that point.

  
  May 2016 to Feb 2017 ~ approx. 40 lbs